You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.

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words of the day: .....beyond,beyond where there's no end.

I know, I sometimes get away especially when I have all these negative vibes around me. I mean, I just didn't want to infect others with the negative feelings and emotions and words. Now, is that a good thing or not? I have learned that people should vent out and let the steam off thier chest inorder for them to feel better. I would do that sometimes but I guess I care about how people that reads my writtings. I mean, I'd rather write things that are good. I don't mean to be hypocrite of course. I know that life is full of both the opposite forces of negatives and the positives. I'd rather emphasize on the positive. I have noticed in one of the messageboards that I frequently visit about this guy's negative posts. I mean, all he talks is about his negative thoughts about himself and his self pity. It brings all the people down. The way I see it, negative thoughts and feelings are like diseases, they can be contagious. On the other hand, it could also help if we talk and share it to the right people.People that could listen and you know can help.Because as they say sorrows shared are half the sorrows but happiness shared to others are twice the happiness.Sometimes the best help one could get is simply to talk to yourself. I don't mean talking aloud to yourself like an insane person but take time to think. Sometimes a few minutes of quiet time is all you need. Works for me sometimes, even be able to do a lot of things when I'm left alone.
When I see, hear and watch about things going on around I often wonder if the wrath of heaven is at hand. Of course all I do is wander and wonder.


words of the day:
"Habitual pigging out is a disease." (Quouted from the commentary on Macon Telegraph "Curing us with Food, the fattening of America.")

We often overeat,overindulge, overloaf. Glutony really is a disease spreading all over the place. Just today I have eaten a slice of pound cake, a slice of banana cake and a cheese cake bar.My! my! triple sin. Atleast I was responsible enough to get up and walk up to the convinient store to buy newspaper then went bike riding while waiting for my beef stew. I just read that exercise could actually help in boosting our memory. So, there's another inspiration for me to keep exercising aside from the fact that I am not growing any younger. I want to build some resistance to any old age pains, but be able to condition my body into the art of exercising. To make exercising habitual instead of aquiring habitual pigging out or just slouching on the couch. I don't want to wake up one day and can't move because I have grown ten times bigger and can't carry my weight anymore.Plus I believe in the metaphysical effects of exercise.

words of the day:
Yes, the nice person often finnish last.
Yes, if you don't scam your fellow man, he will scam you first.
Yes, some people will do anything for a buck.
Yes, the nice guy does often dumped for a creep.

If you think life is unfair, it is. But that's the way it is. I guess that's just how fortunes and luck play their role in people's lives. But you know what? I always think that if it's their turn today, I will wait for my turn (and I don't mean scamming others, let them do the scamming). You'll never know how the events turn the next day or the next cycle of our lifetime.One could be lucky today, he/she might be unfortunate tomorrow. I often play safe, but they say that " He who risk nothing, losses everything." So I try to get risky too. If i lose, I'd say " Atleast I tried." Because they say "How will you know if you haven't tried it?"


words of the day: "hoooot hoooooooooooot!"

I heard an owl hooting tonight because we cracked our windows to let the cool air in. But isnt that strange, an owl so close to our window? I am surprised there's even an owl in the woods close to the residences. I mean it's been the second night I heard the hooting. I remember my grand parents way back in the Philippines when I was a kid, telling me about hooting owls as bad omen. I guess they are just very superstitious. I was told that when we hear the owl hooting, whichever the direction the owl is facing the people living in that place dies. That's why I get the chills whenever I hear owls hooting.I mean because of what I heard growing up, I would associate owls with death. But now that I am grown up I come to think how would the hooting of owl affect one's life or death. I hope it doesn't really have anything to do with it because I have dismissed that weird superstition. I have seen different kinds of owls in a zoo and they actually look cute. But of course I never heard them hoot at day time.


Winter season is coming up and I'm sure everyone's trying to find ways to keep warm. I am not really sure if I like winters or not, but I sure enjoy slurpings soups during the cold season. In fact I just made up my own soup tonight. I found a can of chicken noodle soup in the cupboard, but I am not satisfied with just chicken and noodles. So what I did, I julliened some mushrooms into thinly slices, carrots and cabbage. I boiled a cup of water. When the water was boiling, I added the vegetables and the can of chicken noodle soup. I boiled it for five quick minutes and then added some dried red hot chilli peppers.And sprinkled with chopped scallions. It was very tasty and spicy. I love the mushroomy taste. Of course you could vary the kinds of vegetables you would like to add.

I look forward to doing "hot pot" or fondue in winter. It has always been a fun date with J preparing food for "hotpot" while snuggling up to keep warm. But mind you, winter time could mean a season for the fat to grow and multiply.So, watch out for those ugly suckers. I hope I would be braving the weather and go out and knock those fat away before they even try to multiply. It takes a lot of patience and determination to keep in shape.


words of the day: "When you hear hooves, think of horses not zebras."

I have been trying to analyze this phrase in the entire evening. Well, it's a pretty smart idea though. It was Amy, the bartender who said it. She said her dad told her that. It started when Shy was talking about the fight she had with her boyfriend because someone, somebody called him at work and told him that she's been meeting with her ex-boyfriend. It's just sound so wierd to me that somebody would just spend so much time to be calling C at work unless they really have nothing to do. Well, I guess it means that when things are getting rough between a relationship, don't think of any outlandish thoughts. Concentrate on the situation and not think of something so far fetch reasons for the trouble. But when I think of Shy and C, they are still young and engaged.So there's still a posiibility that things may not work out. Shy is still in school. I think what I would advise young people to do is not to get comitted or seriously involve themselves yet in a relationship until later in life. I see a lot of very young people who got married at the age of 18 and had kids, some didnt have a long term marriage. Got married at 18 and got divorced at 21. It's just sad. I mean, 18, is a very young age to get marry. Soon things could change. When one is 18, it's the age of experimenting. There's so much things that people at 18 should be doing, atleast to how I look at it. I mean having a boyfriend is fine, but to be married at 18. It's just not right in my opinion. There's so much out there for these young people to pursue; education,career,anything of thier interest. To me, it's just the beginning of adult life. One would just be learning to be independent, learning to live on thier own. Even if I don't have any kids yet, I just wanted my kids be grow up before even thinking of getting married. When I look around what young kids today are doing, the more I get scared of having my own. But I guess it all depends how I would rear them.


words of the day: "Art Imitates Life"

Take a look at this song "I'm not crazy, I'm just a liitle unwell" by Matchbox Twenty. Don't you feel a little insane sometimes? I mean, isn't life wonderful and amazing? We laugh, we cry, we hug, we smile, we frown, we think, we stare, we dream, we loath, we sing, we walk, we run, we hate, we love and do a lot of possibilities. We all have our little tricks for staying sane. But I'm sure we sometimes go at the edge at times.That's when we scream at the top of our lungs, we shout, we kick, we argue, we fight, we quarell, we hate, we despise,we get drunk, we drown our soul and think of all other wicked ways.When I thinkof all the madness in this world I would be surprise that I am still among the sane ones.Or am I?


Thoughts...thoughts.....thoughts, it keeps drifting. Moving, flowing, going in endless flow. One could actually just be looking at you and thier minds/thoughts pass right through you. I know, I am sometimes like that. I would just stare to eternity and never blinks. "Glassy-eyed" as they say. But what about thoughts? I have a whole entire sea of thoughts and sometimes I get so absorbed with them, while at times I get nearly drown. The funny thing is, I get so preoccupied with my thoughts at times that I don't even notice J coming to the kitchen that when he speaks I would so often get so startled and sometimes screams at him.

Let me think what my daily thoughts really are;

One, would be, what's gonna be today. A good day, a bad one, what's gonna be at work?
Two, would be, will I be happy today? What should I do to be happy?
Three, should I do my laundry today?
Four, should I go with J to exercise or walk?
And the list goes on......

Pretty boring list. I don't want to bore you so much with my day to day list. But yes, I am fond of taking down notes and reminders. I get so forgetful so often. And it could get me in trouble sometimes especially at work. But I have my ways around it.

I admit on my days off from work I would just loaf around. Or just lounge around in my jammies or even oversleep until I couldn't sleep anymore. That's only when I don't really have anything to do or it could just be that I am so lazy daisy. At times when I get up feeling very enthusiastic, I would do all my home chores until there's nothing else left to do, and I would sit down panting and say "now what?"


words of the day:
Excerpts from the book " Divine Secrets of the Ya-ya Sisterhood" by Rebecca Wells:

We are not born all at once,but by bits. Our mothers are racked by our physical birth; we ourselves suffer the longer pains of our spiritual growth.
~Mary Antin~

Forgiveness is the name of love practiced among people who love poorly. The hard truth is that all of us love poorly. We need to forgive and be forgiven everyday, every hour unceasingly. That is the great work of love among the fellowship of the weak that is the human family.
~Henry Nouwen~

Penetrating so many secrets, we cease to believe in the unknowable. But there it sits,nevertheless, calmly licking it's chops.
~H.L. Mancken~

I discovered one very good tea, good for women. It is called "tension tamer" and the brand name is Celestial Seasonings. Of course it was probably there for a while now but I just never noticed it until a co-worker told me about it. So, the last time I was at the grocery store, I grabbed one. Of course it seaks for itself, it's a tension reliever now with the new one it is fortified with vitamin B6 and B12 which are good to tame the terrible mood swings. Of course I also drink green tea rather than just the regular tea. It's suppose to be health beneficial.

Ok, here's another another tip especially those who are on diet. A glass of water and lemon in the morning and in the evening is supposed to help in the weight reduction. And to make it even better drink water before mealtime. I guess this make sense because the water will take up space in the tummy and so one will not feel that hungry anymore and thus, eat lesser quantity of food. Just one of my quest for health and vitality. Right now I am trying to do regular exercises. I would do stretches inside my home almost daily, plus walking. J even got me some barbels, just tiny barbels for me to use.